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[Dec. 2nd, 2006|10:16 am] |
| Your Famous Last Words Will Be: | 
"Nice doggy." |
I still think that my actual last thoughts will be "Oh, look at that sexy asain girl," and not see the bus that I distractedly stepped out in front of until its far, far too late.
You know when I first accessed lj I had something to say. Then, at some point when reading my friend's page I lost it...Ah well. I'll think of it later...Right not its time for sleep. |
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[Nov. 28th, 2006|09:54 am] |
Yeah, that's about right.
I'll make an entry when I'm not so tired. |
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| Event summary |
[Nov. 17th, 2006|01:58 am] |
Halloween party; It wasn't the real Halloween party but I went as Pierott after making a few additions to the outfit that I'd been meaning to. It was fun, as anime club always is and there was candy.
AIP; They've successfully exorcized the haunting presence that was Josh with the new IDs. I doubt I'll ever set foot in the building again, which makes me rather sad. I took one final walk through, reminicing and running my hands over the tables, wondering how many dreams I gave up as I walked out that last time, knowing that I'd never again take another class here...That used to be one of the most important things in the world to me...That was my dream...What I was going to do for the rest of my life. I wanted it so badly. Where did my fire go? What would I have done differently, if I had it all to do again if I knew how I'd be feeling, right at this moment?
Quiznos...Got an interview. They probably won't call back.
Lolita Meet-Up...
Ragtime...
Those two things were too enjoyable for me to write of tonight. I'm just not feeling it...Dragging my corpse out of bed each morning, killing myself with fatigue and exhaustion has just made me utterly miserable. The most crushing part of it is that there is no way out...I can't miss for any reason if I'm scheduled, or they'll fire me...I'm sure of it. By the time I get home from work I will have only had 2 hours in the last 48, unless I take a nap between now and 5:11, which is when I need to catch the bus. These morning hours, coupled with the soul-numbing drudgery that is my job is inconcievably awful. I think another week like this just might kill me. |
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[Nov. 12th, 2006|02:50 am] |
So...How long has it been since my last real entry? I suppose I should start with work.
Okay, so at some point between now and my last entry they tried to fire me. The reason being that I asked someone to come in for me and they didn't. Of course they didn't really like me there anyway, so it was more of an issue of it being the last straw.
So I had taken every precaution; I had given the person my cell number but they didn't call (despite afterwards telling me that they did). Evidently she still was in high school (though she didn't look it, so I had no idea) and couldn't have possibly come in, so what that was all about I have no idea.
So I got out of bed (the call had woken me up) I got dressed and such and got to work (though they told me that I wasn't needed today) and asked to talk to Mike; It was time to put my silver tongue to work. After waiting 15 minutes or so I got to talk to him and I told him about how I had ADD and didn't bring it up because I didn't like using it as a crutch and was functional, but wasn't able to take anything for it and ever since getting kicked out of AIP I had no insurance and was thus unable to get any pills for it. (All true except for the inability to take my pills. I just didn't want to take them because the days seemed to drag on endlessly when I did, but it looks like I didn't have much of a choice.) In short I just explained that he was about to see a large improvemnt. Fortunately for me, this seemed to be enough. I left that meeting with my job intact.
Looking at my schedule now, its hard to believe I was almost fired recently. In the past month I haven't gotten less than 20 hours a week even once, and was only 3 short of 40 the one week.
Though this story I am about to tell would make one think otherwise, I did learn my lesson, but did ask someone to trade shifts, again, this time right in front of a manager. It was Anthony, who was a decent person and something akin to a friend. He agreed and made it; I wasn't about to miss BOTH anime club meet up parties, and since I was forced to stay and close on the night of the primary one (despite, or course, not being scheduled). Mike told me he'd look for someone, but I'd gotten that corporate run-around already and knew better than to just think so, thus my decision to take care of it myself. Anthony proved to be trustworthy.
So I think I'll make the important updates one at a time so that they don't result in one overly long entry (as its just too tempting to skip past it for those only mildly interested in my life). Expect many entries to follow, in which I will discuss the following;
Halloween party
AIP
Quiznos
Lolita Meet-Up
Ragtime |
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[Oct. 12th, 2006|04:44 am] |
I want money. I want women. I want everything this world's selling and eternity's at the top of the list!
-Greed
Just thought I'd start this quote off with a quote that was too long for the subject box. It made me remember why I loved his character so much.
Speaking of villians I can (somewhat) identify with Illbringer is begining to gain so many worshippers that he'll likely advance faster than planned...Well, faster than the DM planned. Heh heh heh. You know you've done well when the DM calls you a bastard, but grudgingly admits, you've earned every last bit.
That said, not a whole lot is going on in my life, aside from my friendship with Katrina (keiko_utaraichi on lj) which is progressing nicely. Like many of my friends I met her on Gaia, but like very few others, she has become an interesting enough person in my eyes to spill over into other aspects of my life. We philosophize frequently and she seems to have an open mind.
That said there is little else in the way of news. My life is still stagnant, presently, but tomorrow I have another battery of jobs to apply to. They don't seem to want me at Subway (despite their direly understaffed crew) but that was just the impression that I got. They asked me to come in Friday, which is when I'll be accepting my pay (so at least something came of it) and they said they may wany me to work more then. They seemed only interested in having me work weekends, so maybe I can have it as a supplementary job, but I won't be escaping McDonald's with it. On one happy note, I haven't been fired, but maybe that's just because I didn't see Mike or Dave around...Guess we'll see.
Oh, I didn't mention that. I felt faint from sleeplessness and wanted to sit down in the backroom for a moment and they found me quasi-concious and assumed that I was sleeping, instead of fainting...I can't be entirely sure myself, but I felt abolutely miserable all day and begged them to send me home but they refused...Of course. I heard that they had a hard time doing truck that day, but I'm pretty sure that I would have killed myself doing manual labor. I was the weakest one there (save, perhaps, the 2 old ladies that work there) so I can't see what they expected me to accomplish, anyway. Ah well...Hope it works out. As much as I hate it there, I need it.....
Well, that said, I'm off to update Illbringer's journal. |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2006|04:01 am] |
Yeah, I should just stop asking for comments. No one say anything, please.
House of Carters?...You're fucking kidding me, right? Who else has seen those previews?
So I went to Subway...Turns out it was the wrong subway. Yeah, they still hired me, without having my application, but asked me to fill it out and bring it in Sunday...Today. Well, I was exhausted after work, so I came home and went to sleep, as I hadn't slept the night prior. If they hire me over the phone, without application, I really don't think they're going tto care. I'll turn in in before I go to work, and tell them that I had to work late.
I had a great campaign session, yesterday. Everyone present loved it. It was one of those sessions that every DM hopes for. The whole story came together and everyone was significantly affected. It was really wonderful.
My grip on my current job seems to grow thinner and thinner, however. I really hope they hire me at Subway, though it too is far from ideal. At times I would be the only one there, and I really don't want a job where something might happen. I think the best I could hope for would be the other sub place that's opening not far from here, or, depending on the pay, the one that's opening (literally) next door.
As for my general situation, I grow more and more dissatisfied with my life at present. That general, vaugely anxious, but hopeful feeling that you get when you're waiting for something good to happen, if only you can just get through one more day is my constant companion, yet I have no specific thing to look forward to in the immediate future.
Bleach is on TV now, and anime club at Pitt is still running Yatetaki. When I hear the opening music it always brings me right back to when I first heard it. I have the same feeling that I did when I attended AIP. Its that a somewhat anxious feeling that I held most of the time, yet I still look back upon it as a happy time...Indeed, it was a happier time than now, I think. I wasn't exactly happy, and I certainly wasn't content, but I was what you could call satisfied. I know I've said this before, but I was surrounded by my own kind, my people, and I was a part of something. I felt, for the first time in my life, like I belonged somewhere. I need to get back into school.
This time, finally, there is an end in sight, even if it is a good distance from here. Sara found a school for cartooning, which is perfect for making graphic novels which is what I've wanted to do ever since...Atleast mid-way into my AIP career. It's in New York, so I wouldn't be able to start until Sara was out of school, but its well worth the wait...I'm really looking forward to this. I just have to hold a job (and put together a portfolio, again) until then. |
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[Sep. 29th, 2006|04:18 am] |
Okay, so I wake up, go back to sleep (accidently), wind up getting up late and showering as fast as I can, getting to my Subway interview about half an hour late, get hired in spite of that...and in spite of not seeing the manager.
Okay, so get this. I get hired by the manager over the phone. She didn't even see me! So I'm hired for at least a week. If I do well and things work out, it'll be permanent. That means I can quit my job at McDonalds! The only things that would stop me would be my having gotten a raise and making more at McDonald's than I do at Subway...I really wish that I'd have thought to ask how much I'll be making there. I should find out tomorrow but even if I am making less, I may work there, anyway. The main reason being a certain D.
Okay, D has been a complete ass since day one, with harrassment being non-stop. I think that I'll try and get him fired, just before, just after, or as I'm leaving McDonald's. I'm absolutely going to register a complaint. Threatening to was the only way I could even get him to clock me out today, and since he was the only manager, I had no choice.
Anyway, that said, I still hope I get called back by other places, like Border's, and Panera. I think Panera might actually be best (assuming I can make more there, as Border's only offers $6 an hour) for me. It also adds a great deal to my Pierott costume if I actually work at a bakery. I think I'd like to learn how to be a baker as well. Not to go to school for it, but just to do it as an occupation, temporarily, at least.
Also of concern are the headaches that I've been having with increasing frequency. It usually revolves around cell phone use...I know its kind of alarmist and hypochondriactic of me, but I can't help worrying that it might be a tumor. I want to get it checked out, and now that I'm ensured that's actually a feaasable possibility. I still need to go home and get my glasses, as well as a physical, ,if possible.
This brings me to wonder what would happen if I was dying and knew it. What would I do? Be motivated to continue my projects and finish at least one of them or would I give up, lie down, and accept that all is pointless? Or would I use all of my repressed anger and go on a killing spree or perhaps instead try to talk Sara into allowing me to go out with a bang...A big one. Those who know me will probably know to what it is I reffer. Hm...I wonder. What about all of you? I welcome comments (as always) about what any of you on my friend's list would do (as well as anything you have to say about this entry).
I guess that's all for now. |
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[Sep. 22nd, 2006|03:48 am] |
| You Are 40% Slacker | 
You have a few slacker tendencies, but overall you tend not to slack.
You know how to relax when the time is right, but you aren't lazy! |
Wow...How completely innacurate.
So the other day at McDonalds there was a guy, 2 women...And there might have been a kid involved. I couldn't see very well from where I was and I was working, so I couldn't just stop (even though the people in the grill area had). They're screaming at each other and then the guy tries to slap the girl and a sort of fight breaks out. At this point Dave tells someone to call 911 which they do. The people involved couldn't have been to terribly intelligent as they stuck around until the cops came. Granted they had a pretty good responce time...Far better than the time I was mugged, anyway.
Not that anyone reading aside from Sara knows him, really, but I have discovered the joys of playing a deified character. Much to the woe of all good or neutral alligned beings, Illbringer is now a god. |
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| My 22nd birthday...Meh |
[Sep. 4th, 2006|04:05 am] |
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I had an alright birthday. I got a good bit of money...Well, $100, exactly. But that's all, so far and I'm expecting little more. I'd say it was a little bit of a let down, but to be honest I wasn't exactly expecting a whole lot. As for my family, they did all that I expected. I got a good bit of food that I needed, met up with my cousin Jon and his wife Steph, neither of whom had I seen in a while. I got a steak dinner (a little over cooked, for my tastes, as it was brown all the way through the center, rather than crimson) but it was still good.
Anyway, it was nice seeing that my family cares, but I was really expecting a little more from everyone else. Sara hasn't goten her paycheck, yet, and she hasn't had a fucking penny for ANYTHING since we moved in. Shit, her idea for what we'd be doing for my birthday (had it not been D & D day) was going out for a Japanese meal that I'd be paying for. More dissapointing than that was that Terri didn't call. I know that I never call for her birthday (as I never remember when it is) but this is the first birthday of mine that she ever missed. No one else managed any more than a "Happy Birthday" thus far. The only one that did manage to call just for that was Megan.
I mean my sincere thanks goes out to those that did try, but honestly, it seems that my birthday is a little more "meh," each year. Guess that's life.
Well, perhaps I'd think of more to say, but I have to be AT work in an hour and a half. |
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[Aug. 29th, 2006|04:40 am] |
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My schedual this week...Really sucks. Its all ams, one of them starts at 5:30...That is all.
Oh, and my left knee is swelling up again.
I know its been a while since I meade a real entry. Maybr for my birthday. |
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[Aug. 23rd, 2006|01:59 am] |
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Oh, yeah, I meant to make an entry using this icon. I'd make more but to add text I need something a little better than paint. |
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[Aug. 20th, 2006|04:32 am] |
I dunno if Andrew is on lj, Megan almost never is, Zac doesn't have one, and I could simply tell all this to Sara, so why do I continue to post this on lj?...Good question.
Campaign welcomes back Andrew from his summer hiatus. He has been recapped and reintegrated (though the tangents were pretty frequent, this time, I'm sure they will get better. And I did nothing to help). Also, I'm sure the collossal dragon you were kind enough to purchase will surely come in handy, before long. Even if I didn't think so, it's cool enough just to own as a statue.
Other than that there is little news. Sara's dad should be bringing the router by tomorrow, technically today. Oh, I saw an episode of Shin Chan today. I thought it was going to be really stupid, but it was actually really amusing. Terrible animation, though. |
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[Aug. 14th, 2006|04:41 am] |
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Everyone see the new episode of venture brothers? I looked up jollyrancher82 and there are no entries, but the first interest listed: cosplay. Nice, guys. |
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[Aug. 13th, 2006|05:31 am] |
| Your Monster Profile | 
Cursed Giant
You Feast On: Olives
You Lurk Around In: Wal-mart
You Especially Like to Torment: Hicks |
I was hoping for a cooler monster. As it is it looks more like a Wal-Mart shopper, itself.
Your Geek Profile:
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Geekiness in Love: Highest
Fashion Geekiness: Moderate
Gamer Geekiness: Moderate
SciFi Geekiness: Moderate
Music Geekiness: Low
Academic Geekiness: None
General Geekiness: None
Internet Geekiness: None
Movie Geekiness: None
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Damn, but that's a sexy geek...
So Sara and I almost broke up. I was tired of her flipping out and going bat shit crazy over the most minor slights, real or imagined (mostly the latter) and slipping into near hystrionic screaming or hysterical sobbing at almost every social gathering we're called into...And I'm only minorly exaggerating. So I got tired of it. I put her on probation. She's gotten better and I think she'll make it, but we'll see. Counseling isn't out of the question. |
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[Jul. 30th, 2006|04:00 am] |
 | You scored as Loner gnome. You are the lonely gnome. You dont talk to anyone and you like to keep it that way. You have no friends. Maybe deeeeeep down you would like to have someone to talk to. OH well. You are a little loner.
Loner gnome | | 55% | Nice Gnome | | 50% | Bloodthirsty Gnome | | 30% | Pyromaniac Gnome | | 20% | Insane Gnome | | 15% | </td>
What garden gnome are you
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Sounds a little more like a dwarf...This one's not put together all that well. Also, a little more variety would've been nice.
 | You scored as Ascension. You scored as "Ascension".
Your uniqueness and special qualities have been recognized and will soon be rewarded. .
With a low "RelentlessDeath" and "Assimilation" score, you will get to keep your acquired memories and witness the dream of a better world come true. Chances are that you will be granted a provisorial immortality, which you shall get to keep if you won't change for the worse. You may even get to be the leader of an administration district somewhere on our beautiful earth or within our galaxy, to guide mankind into an even brighter future! We're counting on you!
Ascension | | 78% | Redemption | | 68% | Relentless Death | | 27% | Assimilation | | 23% | Rehabilitation | | 15% | </td>
~*~ The End of History and You(your fate in a not so far future, cool anime pics)~*~
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Heh. Heh heh. HehehehHEHEHEH. Josh as a god...Oh yeah, I can see it now. The world sure would be a different place. I really must wonder what the test-makers views on all of this is, though. He/she (I'm totally thinking "she") strikes me as someone who's really out there, with pretty whacked-out beliefs...But at least she's on the right path, with her hatred of bigotry, above all else.
So, today was Amanda's wedding. I dunno if you're reading this, Amanda, but that duet...Eek. No offense, the rest was absolutely great, but as a friend, I have to be honest. I dunno how to properly critique a wedding, and I'm not the type to go on about "how pretty" anyone was (though I am looking forward to seeing more of Sara's new REALLY high stockings with the lace at the top), but I had alot of fun.
I got a little drunk, which was kinda fun, but I'd say overrated. I got along well with a guy we met named Bret, but I don't believe most of the stuff he said (Vic Mignona (sp) being a close personal friend, a voice-acting industry in PA and his involvement in it, his claims to have seen all of these series that haven't even ended in Japan, yet, etc). He's a nice guy, and he seems pretty interesting, the whole lying-for-acceptance thing aside. I saw Elizabeth again, who I had been sorry to have fallen out of contact with. Hopefully we'll do more in the future. Overall, it was a great time and I wish Amanda and Derek luck and happiness for the rest of their days together. |
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[Jul. 21st, 2006|11:44 am] |
I am aware of how pitifully over-the-top geek this whole entry will make me sound, but I'm going to go ahead with it all the same. I just spent...Oh my God, I just lost almost 6 hours to character sheets that were for a game that I wasn't even running O..0 ANd I'm still not done...Well, for tonight I am, but not entirely.
Yes, that means my most depraved and evil character is back. Illbringer has found his way into his 4th campaign as a PC. And this time (should he survive it) he'll finish it as a god. It's Zac's first time DMing, but I think he's doing a fair job so far. Granted, the action was left alomst entirely up to a rogue/bardly character that session so I had a chance to shine while everyone else was a little bored/irritated, buy that was just the way it was set up. I already heard that next session will be much more combat-oriented than this one was, which is fine.
Anyway, I've geeked on for too long about this, already. I'm just happy to be playing that character...Again. |
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[Jul. 15th, 2006|06:24 am] |
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Our router stopped working so I am presntly on Sara's computer, which I do not trust, so I shall post now. Watch for later edits of this entry.
I died in the Dungeon of BlackangelyumeI was killed in a cramped temple by Draconic Soul the mind flayer, whilst carrying... the Shield of Hikari Kirameku, the Amulet of Deadly Lettuce, a Figurine of Yuyu Girl, a Figurine of Bignastynate, the Dagger of Griffons, the Sceptre of Poetry, the Crown of Idoll Famine, the Dagger of Brittany101503 and 31 gold pieces. Score: 128 Explore the Dungeon of Blackangelyume and try to beat this score, or enter your username to generate and explore your own dungeon...
EDIT: I died in the Dungeon of Emo RavenclawI was killed in a cold pit by Demi Goth the zombie, whilst carrying... the Sceptre of My Friends, the Dagger of Revenge, the Amulet of Tamera Gardner, a Figurine of Achromicmoth, the Shield of Mostlyharmless, the Dagger of Tim Burton and 71 gold pieces. Score: 85 Explore the Dungeon of Emo Ravenclaw and try to beat this score, or enter your username to generate and explore your own dungeon...
Some of my favorites were "You hear the sound of abstract reasoning in the distance," "Rich tapestries illustrate horror," "A wooden sign warns about having a plan b," "Across one wall is a faded fresco of yuri," "You hear the sound of darkness in the distance," "The mosaic floor shows sleeping," "It tastes like misfortune," "You hear the sound of unrequited love in the distance," and "You notice some graphitti about philisophical villians." But I think I can do better, so I'm going back for another try. This one, though a bit absurd, is a lot of fun and I reccomend it highly to anyone with time to waste.
EDIT:
I escaped from the Dungeon of Elven Beatnik!I killed Queeneamidala13 the leprechaun, Hentaiqueen the owlbear, Tempestbreaker the gelatinous cube, Aitrus202 the nymph, Allentownalien the minotaur and Bloodpudding the gelatinous cube. I looted the Sword of Traveling, the Armour of Orwell, the Wand of Milton, the Axe of Jomohello, the Armour of Puppets, the Axe of Hearses, the Dagger of Tekkoshocon, the Crown of Nightskyangel, the Sceptre of Philosophy and 131 gold pieces. Score: 231 Explore the Dungeon of Elven Beatnik and try to beat this score, or enter your username to generate and explore your own dungeon...
I can't help but find it amusing that bloodpudding was a gelatinous cube, and I also think its funny that I had better luck in Sara's dungeon than in anyone else's, so far. Anyway, I had to quit because I got stuck in an area that was only two blocks wide. If I went west, east was the only option and if I went east, west was the only option. I also especially like "You hear the sound of emo in the distance." I have to wonder if that sounds anything like forced and needless crying over something trivial.
Speaking of emo, in actual life events we went to Megans party and there was great drama...And by drama I mean moping and getting drunk, on Megan's part. Over what I will not say, but I can't help but feel that the whole things a little messed up and absurd. |
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| I think I've had enough... |
[Jul. 11th, 2006|04:40 am] |
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Alright, so I got word today and my appeal was denied. I'm using that as an excuse to drink juuust a little more mead than I would otherwise. Its touched me rather strongly right now, and this is the closest that I have ever been to drunk.
As to how I'm feeling? I'm not miserable. I'm not drinking to keep myself happy, I'm drinking it because Megan brought it back with her from Ireland and its tasty. I'm just using this as an excuse to polish off a little of it before our anniversary (myself and Sara, three years, now, and only just starting to wan...Just kidding, Sara). Those of you who have been keeping up know that I'm okay with this. I saw it coming way in advance and I've been making my peace with it for a long time and that I've decided what I want to do.
So, to everyone at AIP...Its been fun. I'll never forget you guys. If anyone wants they can leave any numbers I don't already have here, but I'm not expecting much. I know who my friends are, I believe but I'm always up for a good surprise.
As for my time there...Well, I may have had no chance to survive, but I like to think that I made my time and made it well. It was an ennjoyable chapter of my life, but I believe the time has come for its end. |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2006|02:44 am] |
Alright, I promised an update, didn't I? Alright, here's how things have been...
My life, barring an event the truth of which is still under debate until such a time as final evaluation and verification can be made (a week from now) has been this:
Things have been good, if somewhat humid and sticky. (No air conditioning.) I mean work still sucks, but they put me on register, which is easier and nicer than I thought. I've been having campaing pretty much just whenever the hell I want. Actually, sometimes just a little more often than I want, but it makes me happy that my players want so much. I really hope I can novelize the campaign as it is, without having to change the names of all the deities, some of the monsters, etc. Also, Tamera and I have been talking more, which is really nice. I missed it, alot. Also, of course Venture Brothers is back on, and I'm loving it even more than the first season. Other than that we're all moved in and Sara and I have never fought more. We'll probably marry each other within the next several years, if we don't kill each other, first. |
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